Silent and alone, that's the life Risa lives. Risa seemed to have become good friends with silence, she seemed no longer afraid of being alone, because she knew that if she really had to survive on her own, even her own parents didn't think she existed in this world. But from the situation she faces, there are many lessons that can be taken and concluded, from all the attitudes of her parents, Risa can learn that life must be patient and learn on her own not to return evil for evil. Through her parents' relationship that has never been harmonious, Risa can learn, if something that is forced does not go smoothly, from there Risa often learns about the meaning of life which she thinks is cruel and never gives justice.
After her parents left, there was nothing Risa could do but cry, not cry because of the painful wounds on her body, but cry about herself which her parents never wanted. Even with her condition that was already covered in blood because of her parent, no pity they showed, some wounds didn't seem to attract the slightest bit of their attention and sympathy.
“Miss Risa is okay? come on let Aunt help, miss "
Aunt Imah, she is the person who always gives Risa the love that Risa never got from her mother since she was very young. Aunt Imah is a true witness to the journey of Risa's life story which is full of twists and sorrows, Even when she was not even 17 years old, Risa faced difficult times that Risa had never shared with anyone. Aunt Imah is the person who loves Risa the most, because she has taken care of Risa since she was still drinking milk as a source of food or since Risa was a baby, making Aunt Imah feel like she is not taking care of her employer child, but she felt she was taking care of her own daughter. For every harsh treatment that Risa's parents did, Aunt Imah was the saddest person, even when Risa, who felt the pain of her parents' violence, was Bi Imah who would cry.
"Come on miss, let Aunt help"
For the second time, Aunt Imah offered help Risa, who at that time looked a little wobbly, maybe because her head hit the wall. Twice, Risa also ignored the help Aunt Imah offered to her. It's not that Risa is rude, but Risa feels that at that time the situation was very sad and Risa didn't like being in that state. Risa just wanted to remain a strong looking Risa who could still stand on her own two feet, no matter how difficult it was, that's why Risa ignored Aunt Imah's help for the second time.
"Come on Nona, let Auntie help you to the room, let Aunt help treat her wounds too"
"No, I can do it alone, Auntie, just take a break"
Risa let go of Aunt Imah's hand that had touched hers, intending to help Risa walk towards the room, at that time Risa chose to walk alone with limps instead of having to accept Aunt Imah's help. Her life principle that does not want to be pitied by others makes Risa unable to lower her ego, even though no matter how strong she is, she still needs other people in her life. In addition, Aunt Imah's gaze that looked teary with sadness was the reason Risa refused Aunt Imah's help too, because when Risa saw Bi Imah's sadness and tears that was when Risa's defense would break, and she would really become someone who pity himself.
Aware of Risa's refusal, Aunt Imah was only able to stand on the ground floor staring at Risa's departure, climbing the stairs to her room. Without feeling the tears fell down Aunt Imah's cheeks when she knew how much pain Risa felt with the wounds on her body, and how much pain Risa had in her heart for all the treatment of her parents.
"If this is the last night I feel the pain of Mamah and Papah's beatings, I am willing to at least it can make me calm, because with their punches I feel happy, at least if not a hug, a hit can be the last memory I can remember until death" Risa, while leaning her body against the newly closed door, then her body collapsed onto the floor.
Risa hugged her knees while the room was still dark, at that time Risa didn't seem to have the slightest intention to turn on the light, because with the darkness Risa could feel a little calm. The situation that was already in the middle of the night plus the rainy outside, made the situation quiet and cold, the tears of sorrow over the wounds that resided in his heart finally spilled after she had been trying to endure them.
"Why is the destiny of my life this tragic, why is fate never fair to me, why does fate keep testing me, WHY? !!" shouted Risa, sounding so loud in the middle of the night.
Remembering what just happened, it felt like Risa wanted to be angry, but Risa didn't know who to be angry with. Sometimes when in a situation like what is happening right now, Risa is eager to go, and Risa always hopes that the fate of death will immediately pick her up, because no matter how big Risa tries to be patient, Risa is still an ordinary human who has limits and has a sense of despair, when she asked God to revoke his life at that time Risa was at the point of impingement and the most painful point in his life.
Risa's tears have flooded both of her cheeks, the shadow of the time when her parents tortured her without pity is still in Risa's memory, every painful sentence that was spoken from the two's mouths was still ringing in her ears. Risa wants all of that to be forgotten in her memory, because after she forgets it that's when the pain will disappear too, but in reality what ever happened will be impossible to forget, even if forgetting there will definitely be a period of remembering it again. Risa, who had been sitting hugging her knees, finally got up, in the dark atmosphere of Risa's room at that time Risa tried to shed all the anger that was in her heart, she messed up the entire contents of her room until it was out of shape, until accidentally Risa hit the glass cupboard in her room. until it broke and made Risa's hand bleed.
"Nona Risa, what's the matter Nona, let Aunt come in so Auntie can help treat the wound"
"It's okay Aunt, I will immediately rest"
Risa's answer no longer made Aunt Imah dare to say words to refute Risa's words, the middle-aged woman chose to be silent, because she knew that when Risa said no, there was no chance for her to come in and help Risa. However, if only outside his room was his biological mother, maybe without being persuaded Risa would immediately open it.
Risa's cries, which initially fell in silence, finally heard Risa's sobs along with the rain and the silence of the night. His body fell back to his knees, kneeling on the floor the shadow was getting stronger remembering in his head. However, Risa's cry suddenly turned into a grimace, her hand grabbed her own head, Risa tried to calmly hope that this method could dissolve the pain, but it turned out that instead of easing the pain it was more painful. The nosebleed that had stopped for a few minutes, finally returned, the thick red liquid that smelled rancid again flowing from Risa's nose.
Risa tried to maintain her consciousness, but it turned out that the pain in her head was really painful. The eyes that Risa had been keeping open, finally closed tightly, making Risa no longer remember anything other than a darkness.
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After dark comes the light, after night there will definitely be day, everything will continue to repeat itself according to the time of its rotation. Early in the morning, when the atmosphere is still fresh, even the sun has not yet risen above the head. The magnificent house of Risa's parents has received special guest visits. He came with a cheerful smile that was evident on his face, his arrival was of course only to greet Risa, who he hadn't seen for quite a while.
"Assalmu'alaikum" he said, smiling kindly at Aunt Imah who was very familiar because he often visited the house of Risa's parents.
"Mr Dimas, when will you return from Lombok, Mr?" answered Aunt Imah.
The man called Dimas is Risa's uncle, or rather the younger brother of Risa's biological mother. Dimas is one of the people that Risa really believes in his life, because since childhood Dimas is a family that really cares for Risa, he is always there when Risa is in any situation, he is the first person to feel happy when Risa is happy, he will become the saddest person when Risa is sad.
Usually, Dimas always takes the time to come to see Risa at her parents 'house every day, Dimas invites Risa to live in her house with her mother who is Risa's grandmother too, but the teenage girl refuses on the grounds that she wants to stay at her parents' house so she can meet her parents every day even if only for a moment. However, because in the last two weeks Dimas went to Lombok for a honeymoon with the woman he had married about two weeks ago, it automatically made Dimas unable to meet Risa either.
"Yesterday, Auunt, oh yes Risa where is Aunt?" asked Dimas, smiling kindly.
"Nona Risa ... still in her room, Mr" Aunt Imah replied, while letting Dimas enter.
Dimas nodded with a smile on his face, then Dimas walked up the stairs to Risa's room. Because it was normal when Risa was still in her room, Dimas always followed Risa to her room, whether it was just to check her condition, to wake her up, or even to disturb her. However, only half of Dimas' feet hit the stairs, Dimas immediately stopped when he heard Aunt Imah calling his name.
"Mr Dimas, please persuade Nona Risa, since last night she didn't want to leave his room" said Aunt Imah, sounding very worried.
Hearing Aunt Imah's statement, Dimas's face, which was originally decorated with a happy smile, turned a little stiff, her feelings became uncomfortable, because Dimas knew what reasons always caused Risa to not come out of her room. Then, Dimas immediately continued his steps up the stairs a little faster after responding to Aunt Imah's words with a nod of his head. The arrival of Dimas, who had always been overshadowed by Risa's annoyed face because she would disturb her sleep on weekends, immediately changed to shadows that made Dimas feel worried.
Dimas immediately turned the knob of Risa's room door which was usually rarely locked on holidays when he had managed to arrive in front of Risa's door. "Deliberately, if you come, I don't need to get up first to open the door," that was the reason Risa told Dimas when she asked about Risa's room door, which was rarely locked on the Weenend day. However, now what worries Dimas, Risa's door is locked and Dimas is increasingly convinced that something so big has happened.
Dimas tried to bang on Risa's door, hoping she would open the door. Dimas doesn't care that Risa will be annoyed later, what is important for him now is to make sure his heart and see with his own eyes if Risa is fine. However, in fact now there is no answer heard from inside the room, even though it is very clear if Risa is still in her room, it would be very unlikely if Risa's sleep was not disturbed by the sound of banging and Dimas's screams calling her name, because what Dimas knows Risa is the type of child which is easy to wake up.
After a few minutes, finally Risa's door was successfully opened, with the help of Aunt Imah who suddenly came carrying a spare key that she said she had just found. The first thing that appears when the door opens is the condition of Risa's room, which is usually tidy, now looks very messy. Until finally Dimas's eyes fell on Risa's figure who was still lying helplessly near the cupboard with shards of shards scattered near Risa's body as well.
"Risa, what's this? Why are you so battered like this? ” Said Dimas, when he was near Risa, while holding Risa's head which was originally lying on the floor.
At that time, there were marks of dried blood on Risa's forehead and nose. Dimas' belief about what happened increased to a hundred percent after seeing Risa's condition. Dimas tried to wake Risa by all means, but seeing Risa who didn't want to open his eyes, Dimas finally decided to take Risa straight to the hospital.
"Uncle ..."
Dimas glanced at Risa who at that time was already in his arms, his ears could hear Risa calling him with a voice that sounded so weak, and at that time Risa did wake up, but not long after that Risa lost her consciousness again. Dimas tried to wake Risa by shaking the body in his arms, his mouth kept calling Risa's name, hoping that this method could bring Risa back to her senses. However, because Risa didn't open her eyes, Dimas took Risa straight to the hospital. Right after arriving at the hospital, Risa was immediately rushed to the emergency room, and after that the doctor immediately gave Risa a handler.
"What exactly has happened to the patient, Sir ?why are there so many injuries on his body that seem to have happened deliberately," said the Doctor, staring at Dimas closely.
"I also don't know Doc, I found my nephew already in that state in his room" Dimas replied, as it is.
"Starting today, please always monitor your nephew sir, because if your nephew experiences violence it again, can have an impact on his mentality," said the doctor, who immediately nodded at Dimas, because after this Dimas would not let anyone hurt Risa, including his own parents.
"Okay Doc, thank you" replied Dimas, nodding.
The doctor talking with Dimas also nodded his head, then he said goodbye because he had to check the condition of his other patients. Meanwhile, Dimas, choosing to enter Risa's treatment room, on the bed, Dimas saw Risa who was still lying with several bandages attached to her body, and an IV was hanging. Dimas' heart was cut when he saw Risa's condition, Dimas again felt that he failed to look after Risa, because again he saw Risa injured.
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